Sunlight Through the Process

Good morning! It is a cold crisp Autumn day. My grandchildren are asleep so far but at anytime I may have to cut this blog short to attend to other things! I awoke with crazy dreams in my head. I suppose one could call them night mares but somehow thankfully they weren't the kind that seemed real, Some dreams are so vivid! This dream was probably just me trying to work things out in my mind or due to over researching on the internet. My Siberian Husky (which I adopted from my son in a pregnant state) is ready to have puppies. She is AKC which really makes no difference to me. Our first dog was a German Shepherd Mutt, Mix and one of the best dogs ever. The AKC register just may or may not make it easier to find homes for the mixed breed pupppies Nanook will be having. Nanook is Siberian Husky and has all the features but her register is limited. The different thing about her is that her fur is longer than most which is referred to as a Wooly Siberian Husky. It happens sometimes along the line of huskies, makes no difference to me either. I think the longer hair is pretty but it takes a lot of brushing because of the dense undercoat. It's important to keep her brushed so she doesn't get matts or clumps in her fur. I'm a happy homemaker. Very happy since I quit my job. I have lots of time to devote to share time and care time with my dog. My youngest college age son also calls her his dog lol so it is our dog! Nanook can't be a show dog because her longer fur is unacceptable but I love it and people are always telling me I have a beautiful dog. I don't want a show dog anyways. Nanook is a friend. part of my family and loveable. My dream was about her and I was away and trying to get back because I was afraid she would be having pups and need to be there incase any trouble happens so I can call a vet. We did stay home this weekend and trade places with our oldest son and his wife so they could go with my daughter to MO. Her boyfriend which I am quite sure will be her official fiance soon is moving here to Indiana. He'll finish college here. The only thing we are going to do is go to Lincoln Park a little while with the grandchildren and it will give Nanook a little peace and quiet which she needs! I have her whelping box all set up and she is spending more time in it. I arrange all the old blankets and she rearranges them. She only wantes them infront of the box so I say "OK Nanook whatever makes you more comfy." She is 4 and this is not her first litter. It is only her first mixed breed litter which I have a feeling will be adorable! My dreams even took me to the VA Home where my Dad spent a year before he passed away. I went in the home on my way to get to my home. Not likely for Marquette, MI is a 15 hour drive from here but it was a dream! I saw on the wall two little wreaths hanging , kind of like ceramic hand painted. One had my Mom's name, one my Dad's name. There were little bears int he center. I told the staff my Dad passed away in May and I really want to bring these home or to my Mom. How crazy is all this? They for some reason asked if I had time to get my blood pressure taken because they were doing free checks. I said OK but I need to go soon, my dog is going to have puppies. Last thing I remember I had a clothes basket full of Dad's stuff and I left with it. Then I woke up! I miss my Dad so much. I think I want to go to the VA Home when I am up if Dad's roomate is still there and I got to know his wife pretty good over spending a month in MI the last summer. Somehow I can't describe I just need to go there for some reason. I get to feeling at times almost like all this is not real and he lives on there. It's so hard living far away. I didn't get to spend as much time with Dad but we had a tremendous closeness. There are so many people in my life who are close and going through hard things. My Mom who is 6 years younger than my Dad was and in pretty good health is having troubles with hers. Trouble with anemic and losing weight, trouble with blood pressure, trouble with kidney levels which her last meds made worse. Depression and grief and something they need to check with too high of calcium levels. My sadness is hurting for her and wanting to be closer but we talk and keep in touch. The grandkids made cards and wrote letters for her. Life sure can hurt but I believe in sunlight through the process. Sunlight a nice visit over the phone with Mom and knowing things are improving some. Sunlight , she recieved the last letters and drawings the kids sent and loved them so much. Sunlight though she is saddened about the sale of the farm which she isn't living in for some time yet has attatchment too she is very happy for the couple buying it. (For awhile my niece and her husband lived there but it didn't work out too well for them and with moving)The couple buying it is in their 50's about the age she is when my Dad and her bought it. (It was Dad's dream to have a country home and lots of land like he had growing up and he had it for over 20 years ) The couple has horses and wanted more room for them. Their children are grown like I was when Dad and Mom remodled the farm. They will have grandkids visiting. They invited Mom to visit when the sale is final and they move in. The man was her meter reader and wanted the farm for years. Sunshine is the horses too. Oh my gosh my Dad LOVED horses so much. One of the things he told my sister not long before he died is that he was going to get a modelT and saddle up some horses! Yes, he had his moments of being in another place but when that happened we didn't correct him. He had joy and hope and talked about going home. You just don't mess with someones hope and joy. Some things matter and some make no difference. If someone goes back in time and has pleasant memories why not just let them have those moments. The blessing is that Dad NEVER forgot who we were. I know some do and it would be hard! If that would have happened we would have all been there for him because we would still know who he was and love him deeply. I have to go here! The grandkids are up and my son is getting ready for work. The sun is shining

PS Excuse the typos posting as it is because I can't get blogger to work , can't seem to locate the edit button to correct wrong spelling...I Still have problems making sense of blogger..but I'm looking for the sunshine and the sunshine is you !